The Eternal Dance
I don't understand,
The world around me,
I just get confused,
By the people I see.
A constant battle – with my sound,
A constant rivalry – between two minds,
I am drowning in this desert of emptiness ,
How do I fit in this world which seems so complex to me.
Every wrong step –
Something in me goes,
Drifting through time,
Is this life really meant to be mine.
I look around the room trying to understand,
Everyone else seems to know when to make their sound,
I get a thought, an idea but then,
My mind goes blank like an empty page,
Too many voices – stacked, colliding into one.
Looking deep into the mirror of possibilities,
But nothing,
The mirror twists me into something I don't recognise and laughs,
You will be nothing but a burden to this world.
My dance becomes weak,
My sound becomes quiet,
I bleed to know I’m alive.
The world doesn't get me,
You're a square in a room full of circles.
This isn't the choreography I was meant to follow.
I have stood in the flames that burnt my brain,
I have suffered the consequences,
Tracing old scars like a half-faded mark,
This is where I’ve been.
Age taught me: no winners or losers in this war -
Only victims, only students.
I stood face to face with the beast refusing to cower,
I became the rhythm you find when your steps fall apart.
My mirror will fill with possibilities,
The battle was never meant for me to win, it was an eternal dance,
With every clumsy footstep, every wrong step I would lose a part of me,
I learnt to relax and soften,
Then the dance got easier.
I don't understand,
The world around me,
I am dancing down a complex road - unapologetically me,
I am a square in a world of circles -
And still, I dance it my way.